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Yes, I'm posting. There was disaster in my life (water damage thanks to an idiot upstairs neighbor who attached a hose to a sink -- SRSLY WTF) and then more disaster (my computer broke DDDDX), but I'm actually doing OK right now. Not that any of you care at all about that. :P

I've decided not to post Apogee until I have about another 100 pages or so done sequentially from where I'm at now. After thinking it over, it really works out better this way. I'd rather not take a long break again. I really should've just finished it before I started posting, but I got excited. Stupid me.

I'm also almost finished watching Xena. LOLWTF I know. But still. Perhaps worth a mention?

I really need a better time-management system. And to get online every day. Or at least get the internet at my house, I mean REALLY.

ALSO: would anyone be willing to help me on a long-term original novel? I need general opinions, that sort of thing. I'm sick of making money by working retail--I need to be a paid author!! *headdesk* It's urban fantasy, FYI. Just let me know. I need some honest feedback about my stuff, and opinions about characters, plots, etc. YES.

ALSO: I am really working on going to some conventions this year and getting one or two more tattoos. WE SHALL SEE.

I still love you all, even if you have forgotten me. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

HAS EVERYONE SEEN TOM HARDY NAKED YET?!! Because if not, you know, you really should. Also here!

Read Hyperbole and a Half's This Why I'll Never Be An Adult. ♥

bookshop's Inception post is basically accurate for everyone I've talked to. Except, of course, I ignored the Cobb/Mal and focused on the Arthur/Eames my first time around. My second time is when I noticed the epic het. What can I say? I'm a slasher at heart, first and foremost. \o/

Also, I am now convinced that I will never be able to escape fics I owe people, thanks to the return of bloodsorrow who used to be someone else but is still the same person I owe a Gundam Wing fic to. EPIC FAIL, SELF. EPIC FAIL. I am never writing that fic like ever. Sorry, man. I suck.

... but really, who cares about everything but the first two links? I KNOW I REALLY DON'T.

No, this is not an Apogee update. Have a cookie instead. *gives out cookies*

So I started a FrayK vid. It's just I heard the song and then I was like... it was so... YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. IT JUST. HAD. TO. HAPPEN. So that may be finished shortly since I'm using footage from only s3 due to the nature of the song AND I've finaly finished s3 and HOLY FUCKING SHIT I HAD NO IDEA DUE SOUTH WAS THAT GOOD!! PEOPLE. YOU MUST TELL ME THESE THINGS. Are there any other incredibly amazing gay shows that I missed out on years agao? PLEASE TELL ME LIEK NAO.

So re: writing, I've been switching basically continuously between Apogee, this unnamed FrayK fic, a McShep fic, some Morgan/Reid, and some wincest stuff. Which means one of two things. Either there will be a plethora of fic all posted on the same day at some point in the future because I'll have finished them all at EXACTLY THE SAME TIME, or there'll be sporadic fics in no logical order for random fandoms. XP

Also, I suck, and so knowing this I've decided to never again sign up for any kind of challenge, exchange, auction, or big bang sort of thing. I just can't be held to these kind of constraints, okay?! *panicked eyes*

ALSO NO I'M NOT UP TO DATE IN ANYTHING. AT ALL. NOTHING. Just FYI.

Oh, and one last thing. I'm compiling an epic fic and vid rec list in every fandom I'm in, because I realized this needs to occur. I have very picky tastes, you know, and I figure why not share the love? But who knows when that will happen.

RAYK ILU HARD MARRY ME LIEK NAO KTHXBI ♥

I'm in the middle of writing Apogee 10c. DEAL WITH IT. I'll reply to 10b's comments when I get more time. And I'm in the middle of this EPIC EPISODIC META for SGA, not that most of you really care. But I'm the type of fangirl that needs to be in several fandoms at once--otherwise I cry from lack of gay subtext.

I need to catch up on SPN, SGA, Merlin, Glee, Psych, BSG, Carnivale, Dexter, and SO MUCH MORE IT'S SCARY b/c I suck at being up-to-date with anything.

The only comment I have left is this: wincest and McShep are both canon srsly. ♥

So there's good news and bad news. The good news is that I meant to update Apogee today, but I couldn't finish it last night because of added witty banter, so it'll be up tomorrow b/c I'M STAYING UP ALL NIGHT TO FINISH IT. The bad news is that I didn't finish the prequel is time for startrekbigbang, and life is full of pain for me about it. I'm hoping to finish the prequel soon, but right now I've stopped working on it to go back to the main story.

ALSO! I got a job so I'll have less time to write, and I've got to work on my original too. I'm still aiming for once a week updates, but getting online is becoming more and more of a chore. *headdesk*

I'M SO SORRY FOR THE INCREDIBLY LONG WAIT!! Gargh. I'll try to do better from now on.

There are three main factors to my slow Apogee updating, in case you're curious.

1- I got a job so now I've got way less time to write in. (Worth re-stating, IMHO.)
2- In order to write, I usually have to stay up until around 4 or 5 in the morning before I get in the mood to write, and by then sometimes I'm too tired to do anything.
3- I was lured away by other ST fic and the new season of SPN. But I'm still working on it! It's just... ST FIC AND SPN!! *pines*

[Poll #1462134]

DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THIS POLL. I'm only asking b/c I think it's going to take a long time to finish the Apogee story. At first I thought it'd take maybe six months, but it's been like four or five months and it's not where it should be, so now I'm thinking closer to two years. If I update weekly, or at least write a chapter each week, that is. That's either really great or really terrible news, I'm not sure which.

Re: TV Shows and Movies! I watched the first two seasons (almost) of Skins and thought they were great. I FUCKING LOVED "Shelter" and "Were the World Mine"--highly rec'd to anyone who enjoys gay cinema, or gay interest films, or whatever the fuck they're calling them nowadays. And I am on SGA 2x05-ish, and I'm taking EXTENSIVE episode notes on the McShep development. I plan on compiling them into an essay on the canonity (HA HA LOOK AT THAT FUCKING WORD) of their relationship. NO SPOILERS PLEASE I HAVEN'T FINISHED IT YET!! I'm also watching SPN s5, and as my default icon suggests, ANYONE WHO SPOILS ME FOR SPN S5 WILL BE SHOT IN THE FACE WITH A MACHETE. Just FYI.

I got over 1,000 new songs that I'm slowly going through. fanmix has been very helpful in finding great new music. "You're the Only One" by Maria Mena is FUCKING AWESOME and I'm loving all of my John Sheppard and McShep mixes. ♥

I've updated my icons! YAY! So that's fun times. And I'll catch up on responding to comments (including replies to my fanmix and Apogee 10a) tomorrow when I post 10b. I also have some friending to do, apparently.

ILU FLIST!! See you soon. ♥

HI again people! I'm at jelost's house again for the week, this time with siriuslyyellow in tow. Here's what I've been doing that you probably don't care about:

- playing Arkham Asylum. HOLLA BACK!! This game is FUCKING PHENOMENAL!! I am loving it. I'm 43% done with it so far, so I'm looking forward to finishing it. Plus, now I can access the section where you can play as the Joker since I'm at the internet now. \o/ I am kicking ass and taking names with solving the Riddler's challenges. XD

- finished watching Oz and I fucking loved it!! Keller/Beecher FTW!! NO SRSLY THO. Where are the fanvids when you need them? ALso finished Band of Brothers (have I said that already?) and loved it!! Winters/Nixon FTW!! Yes I ship them even though it's based on real people and no I don't feel bad about it at all. XP

- currently watching: Animorphs (shipping Tobias/Rachel & Jake/Marco--that last one by accident--they are WAY more slashable in the TV show than they were in the books) & Psych (I am confused about my ship at this point. Probably Shawn/Lassiter even though I'm not convinced yet) & Farscape (John/Aeryn (sp?) totally rocks!). But soon I will be watching SGA and life will be a happy place for me.

- read Hush. Um, WTF it was so not as good as I thought it would be. Batman needs to stop chasing after Catwoman and accept that he and the Joker are in love already. FOR PETE'S SAKE.

- my cell phone is no longer alive due to lack of money. DX No tweets or contact with the outside world for me. *headdesk* Am possibly getting a job to correct the situation, but that would mean less time for writing, which would SUCK. *le sigh*

Things you might care about:

- Apogee 10b is coming along. I re-wrote it b/c of a few comments that had me thinking about something else I should do, but I'm hoping it'll be done soon.

- Apogee BB is totally stalled b/c of 10b, which means either I'll finish it in a rush of staying up all night four nights in a row or I won't finish it at all and put it out later myself.

- working on my first ever fanmix for a fandom I'm in but not currently ficcing for, and it's almost done! \o/

Um, I think that's it? I'll reply to the comments I've gotten these past two weeks later. Right now, I think I'm off to write. Or sleep. Not sure yet. We'll see what happens when I get to the air mattress and have to make the decision to fall upon it or walk by to my computer, which I brought with me for writing purposes.

Just wanted to update now to say I'm alive and working on shit and there's no need for panic. :P

ILU ALL LIEK WHOA!! ♥ ♥ ♥

OK, here's a thought. Maybe a good one, too! If I update Apogee on FFN only when I update Apogee on LJ, that'll mean LJ will be, like, ten or so chapters ahead constantly, which will be a better reason for people to read the fic on LJ, but will still allow people to read it on FFN if they want to. So, it favors LJ, but people reading it on FFn would still get updates.

Um, Y/N/STFU?

Also, what's this Kirk/Spock archive I'm hearing about? *goes to google it*

Ok, so I need an idea for a mission and I need it FAST. I thought I had one that worked but as it turns out, I don't. What can you do? So if there's something you've been wanting to see in Apogee, let me know! Preferably a general mission so I can edit accordingly. Like, if I had to describe 6's mission, I'd say "mystery space disease forces ground team away from ship" or something. So, any ideas?

ALSO! Because it's fun, and don't lie about it, you know it is, I'm going to play the ask a character game! Comment with a question for any of the Apogee characters and I'll reply in character! COME ON, YOU KNOW THIS IS FUN.

Oh, and I posted this over at kirkspock b/c it's the comm that frightens me the least with mod-slapping. XD The post is here, so I don't lose it when I'm looking for it later.

EDIT: BTW, you can comment with an idea and no question, or with a question a no idea. It's not like you have to do both or anything. XP Also, of course you can have questions for more than one character and/or more than one questions for the same character. Feel free to go nuts! \o/

EDIT 2: Unrelated, but look at this smexy pic of ZQ fucking riding a motorcycle!

OMG EDIT 3: helpwess pic-spammed with awesome. It will kill your dial-ip, but it's worth it, I say, WORTH IT!! There is ZQ and XFine smexiness!! &harts; PEOPLE THEY ARE SO IN LOVE OMGEEEE I NEED TO WRITE A PINTO. /Pinto fangirling

EDIT 4: Thanks for all of your awesome ideas! I've got the mission figured out now, so I don't need any more suggestions for 10. However, feel free to continue suggesting mission ideas for future missions--although no promises on whether or not they will be used. And of course you can still ask the characters questions! :D

damietta linked me to THIS AWESOMESAUCE NEWSWEEK ARTICLE ON KIRK/SPOCK LOVE which you all should read. Scoot along now and come back when you're done. :P

Also, srsly, does anyone know of really great Chris Redfield/Leon Kennedy epic fanfiction? The more I play as them in RE4 & RE5 and the more I read about them, it's just so obvious. They do have a very serious zombie-killing love, do they not? THIS IS TRUFAX. Now I need an icon, LOL. Oh, Photoshop, my love for you is so epic and true.

In other news, Apogee 6c is coming along SLOOOOOWLY. This is sad for us all. I am starting to reply to comments today, hopefully I'll finish replying in the next few days.

And as for startrekbigbang, here's a thought. Do they allow more than one fic per author? MUST INVESTIGATE. B/c really, it's all about the art, Y/Y? I mean, I could write Apogee side-stories all day long, but what do I want ART for? Hmm... I am seriously considering two Apogee prequels. One with Spock and Kirk's respective childhoods, the other with Kirk and McCoy in the Academy. WHAT SAY YOU, FLIST?!

BTW, I am gathering together a new music post, but of course this takes time and patience and good recs. And I have one song I must put up when I've got the chance! "U.S.S. Make Shit Up" by Voltaire. RL friend Nicole gave it to me and HOMG AMAZING.

Oh, wait, I FOUNT IT ON THE WONDERFUL INTERNETZ! http://www.voltaire.net/2007/voltaire%20podcast/Podcast/6C77F090-87AE-46FA-9E39-BEF8460AF7F1.html Go dl this song, people. Lyrics here or here, I think there may be a few differences, meh. Whatevs. *shrugs*

OMG I HAVE TO GO NOW AND I DIDN'T REPLY TO ANY APOGEE 6B COMMENTS! *headdesk* Life is pain.

EDIT: Should I have my daily tweet posts not under lj-cuts? They're short so I don't think it really matters? And it's just more of a pain to click on the cut and then nobody reads them anyway? *scratches head*

Yeah, so this weekend jelost visited and we hung around and did basically nothing. Caught up on SPN! WOOT WOOT!! ♥ But we also watched the first three eps of Dollhouse, and I have to say, both siriuslyyellow and I agree that this is one of the worst shows EVAR. Echo is a dumbshit. -_-;;

I wrote more on my original novel this weekend! YAY! And I wrote the beginning of an Arthur/Merlin dramatic epic, which might rock, and I worked on a few one-shots, which might also rock. Everything will probably get posted in one huge spam session at some point after my graduation.

I'M GRADUATING IN, LIEK, A MONTH U GAIZ. *flails* What will I do with my hard-earned master's degree? Probably nothing. SUCH IS LIFE. *headdesk*

And OMG random--I got a bunch of comments on TBKS the past few days. Yay, but what? I'm shocked anyone is still reading it. IT WILL BE FINISHED AT SOME POINT IN THE FUTURE. KEEP WAITING.

And question about my original novel: who would you prefer to see confess, the more dominant action-hero type guy or the more submissive angsty guy? Well, both of them are angsty. BUT STILL. Think of it like this: is it better when Naruto/Sam/Merlin/Taichi confesses or when Sasuke/Dean/Arthur/Yamato confesses? THOUGHTS!! Maybe Dean and Sam should be switched to the other categories? *headdesk* Whatever. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.