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Basically what the subject line says. I'm about to fic spam y'all. Just be forewarned. And also, my photobucket account says my bandwidth is low! ACK! THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE. I guess I'll see what happens. What should I do? Take down the GIFs? Switch to another image site? Any suggestions? *hopeful eyes*

My K/S fic just got posted! It's un-beta'd so I'm sure there are errors, but whatever. *shrugs* I've stayed up literally all night long the past four nights in a row writing it, b/c I wanted to finish it before I posted it, but it looks like I'm just going to write and post simultaneously! WIPs sort of suck, but still, I need some feedback. :P

TV watching shit: I'm mid season 3 of The L Word, beginning of season 3 of House, mid season 1 of Carnivale, 5 eps left of BSG, mid season 5 of QAF, and near the end of what's out for Dollhouse, Leverage, and SCC. Oh, and I'm beginning season 3 of Heroes and my box sets of s1-3 of TOS should be at my house tomorrow, so I can catch up on original Star Trek while I'm writing for STXI! Yay that is so plannish.

Meanwhile: my angst levels are steadily rising. I am hoping positive squee-filled comments to my fic will fix that. *crosses fingers*

Also! I've got to fix my eBay account (something's fucked up in it and I don't know what), AND I've got to fix my icons here. Bah internet housekeeping SUCKS. :(

EDIT: BTW, I'm seriously not ignoring you guys! But now that I'm back out of college I don't have any internet access, really, except for the library. I got here today, but I don't know how often I'll be here. So if I'm not commenting on stuff I should be commenting on, or noticing stuff directed at me, just please send me a comment/e-mail and I'll get to it ASAP! I HEART YOU, FLIST!! <3 (Also, this might mean you'll get more fic from me, so... yay?)

So, I just bought a few posters on eBay--new sasunaru ones!! ♥ I randomly thought of it, and man, am I glad I did! Especially with posters--nobody gets me posters but me b/c they all figure I've got them already. LOL *headdesk*

I'm done getting stuff for now, though. I've got enough merch that I feel accomplished, which is the feeling you're supposed to get from graduating, and anyway this is more important to me. Plus, my mom basically told me nobody was getting me anything for my graduation b/c of money problems, so I figure, fuck it. Right? Right. :P

P.S. I'm still behind on Naruto, so DON'T SPOIL ME!!

T H E N ↔ N O W

That one's stolen from marcuswolf. And the next two are stolen from carola_chan.

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers and enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real . . . nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

( Answers for the letter R )

( The Naruto Meme )

Also, so sad to see Kim Manners go. But whenever I hear someone dies of lung cancer, I always have to wonder why they killed themselves. Smoking kills you. It's a fact. And even being around other smokers--well, second-hand smoke, even if you don't smoke yourself, is even worse than smoking (b/c cigarettes have that filter and the smoke around them isn't filtered at all.) Why do so many people die of lung cancer? It's astounding to me. Also, not to sound like a horrible human being, but I seriously hope the show isn't affected poorly by this. Obviously, Kim had a huge impact on the show, and some of my favorite episodes were his work. I hope his influence is honored by his colleagues.

Also, I have heard more about Havemercy. I am so in debate about reading this book. I guess I should support the fandom and buy it. But I am so iffy about people in fandom writing books. I know it's hypocritical, and I'm going to end up buying it anyway, but I mean, come on. Don't you have higher expectations because it's ladyjaida? I know I do, and if my expectations aren't met, it will be fail. :(

I've been working like a made woman on this spn gen fic for tahirire for spn_monthlyfic's September round, which is already over. I'd like to try to get it up by the end of the week, but it turned into this whole different thing than I was expecting, and now I'm going back and re-reading and it's like, "That doesn't work any more. What was I thinking there? Why is that chihuahua eating that pencil?" So there are SERIOUS PROBLEMS with this fic that I must address.

And soon because tahirire is going to kill me. :(

Also, didn't go to class today b/c of lack of a ride. So, maybe the extra few hours will help me whip this into shape? WE SHALL SEE.

It also doesn't help even slightly that I've been finishing Queer as Folk season 4, FINALLY. siriuslyyellow and I rented it from the library. We're three episodes from the end, and then we just rented season 5, so I should be done with this series by the end of the week. YAY AND JOY. Also, we rented Lost season 2, which is actually good even though lots of people like it. Who knew?

ALSO. College is killing me. I just finished the newsletter and tomorrow I'm puting up flyers and then I've got to write a short story for class, due tomorrow, and a mid-term paper next week, that I've got no idea what to write it on.

Why did I think it was a good idea to run three fic comms?

And I still have't seen SPNS04E04, so if you spoil me I'll eat your face.

EDIT: I would really like to have the internet at my house, so I can actually write and do online shit at the same time. That would be like heaven to me.

Happy birthday, xtirpate!! ^_^*

Also, I'm going to be spamming my flist soon by re-posting up my fics here, and maybe in some coms. So, uh, be prepared for that. Not today. But soon. :P

And finally: OMG, wtf mind?! I'm having a fandom-esque dilemma. Two, really.

One: is it better for the two main guys to get together in canon or for there to be obvious subtext? If the two main guys kiss in canon, does that turn off het shippers? I mean, yaoi shippers will ignore the het kissing, so maybe it goes both ways? B/c I need to decide how I'm handling the romantic side of my original shit, and I don't want to really tick off anyone/potentially ruin portions of the fanbase/fandom. But the main guys are totally going to be yaoi. Totally.

Two: what are your feelings on non-fandom friends? I mean, what do you guys do with friends who aren't interested in the fandom at all and generally have the exact opposite opinion as you do? I'm trying to figure out what to do with a very good friend of mine that I haven't seen in around four years (she moved away, now she just moved back). I've been in the fandom since I was eight years old, mind, so I was in the fandom before. We used to hang out just fine, go to see movies or similar shit, but now we're both broke. Also, during those four years, I only hung out with fandom people. She was my only non-fandom friend, and now I'm finding it difficult to find things to do when we hang out together--it's like I've lost my touch for doing non-fandom things. I also sort of feel like, you know, why bother doing something I don't want to just to entertain her? If the both of us can't agree on something, what's the point of hanging out (if we're not going to see a movie or to an event sort of thing, I mean)?

I tried a bunch of stuff, but none of it sparked her interest. She started reading a book during the first twenty minutes of the BSG mini-series b/c she said BSG was boring and she didn't like "space shows", she can't stand SPN (or rather, Sam and Dean's emotional moments on SPN), she also said she thought Dean was an idiotic manwhore, she didn't like that Dexter was from the killer's perspective, she hates all anime and video games, she only watches the HP movies and doesn't really enjoy them... I mean, what else is there? What do people do in this kind of situation? /rant for help

So... ideas, thoughts, anyone?